Everytime

Every time I do something. I forget what I was doing.
Every time I find something. I try my hardest to leave it alone.
Every time I decide to think more. I stop thinking.
Every time I want to be alone, I end up sleeping.
Every time I want to cry it makes me laugh.
Every time I think about how to get out, I am in.
When I’m in, I know how to live.
It is all so hazy, it is also clear.